Dampen my Enthusiasm...

    One of my major strengths/flaws is the fact that I
expect so much of myself. Although, I've never really let myself down
with my expectations, and during the few times I've done so, I've
managed to use the setback as a means to bounce back. But the problem
begins whenever I start projecting my expectations to others.



    I guess, being a obsessive-compulsive perfectionist
means that I expect more from people. And as much as I would try to
bring my 50% (or whatever fraction/percentage of the whole) onto the
table, the remainder is still brought and controlled by
whoever/whatever parties are involved. And of course, it rarely happens
that the sum of the parts forms 100%. This has been the summary of my
social life (including work relationships, love life, friends, family
life, etc.) thus far. Although I wouldn't claim to be holy because I've
done my share of half-assing my part too, and I have let people down
before. It just sucks to get let down.



    Maybe because I see so much in people. I'd like to
think that its instinctive in me that whenever I see a person, I try to
imagine the best that that person could be. And I try to bring that
out. Not everyone understands that, and a lot of people, would be just
really happy maintaining their status-quo.



    I know that great expectations are the core of
greater possibilities/accomplishments, and greater frustrations.



    I guess I'll have to manage my enthusiasm and
expectations. Change and improve what I can, for the things that I
can't... well si Lord na bahala dun.