Random Update

    I'm on full-time leave from our office (its officially my first full-time vacation period since graduating March 2005). I've been working since then, and its just great change of pace to have a little bit more free time in between review periods to catch up on sleep, work out, move around the city and see/do stuff.

    Yes... I spent 3 half-assed days pretending to study (for 4 hours) and spending the rest of it on watching Grey's Anatomy (something I've been wanting to do in a long time... I really don't have time for TV). I got hooked and it got so bad that I decided to just take a whole day off to finish the season 3 dvd (which is only up to episode 17).

    Its funny how a TV show can wake-up and force you into relapse... a relapse of thoughts, memories and emotions which are better off kept in the hairline cracks of your consciousness.  But I guess its good too, because it triggers a lot of introspection. Here are a few things I think I think:
    
    a. I need to learn to trust my gut/intuition more. Whether it comes to reading people,         designing buildings, solving problems, etc. Looking back at my recent history and trying     to connect the dots... I realize that my initial thoughts and decisions on things were             usually the right courses of action.  I trust my gut more now.

    b.  Cold hard logic isn't what drives people to do things. Its emotion... go                       figure...eMOTION. (sounds like a  really lousy ad for a computer school) I feel now.

    c. To Marella - I just talked with your mom. Tita tells me they aren't pushing through with the house. I understand the change in priorities. Thank you for trusting in me. Its actually liberating... because for months now, I've been holding-off and working on the project intermittently, mainly because of my gutfeel and a host of other... uh...attachment issues. Don't worry I'm good. I'm free now.

    d. To you in the middle of nowhere... Congratulations on finding what you were looking for.     Don't criticize something you never understand, because you never had it. Don't criticize people for being too close to their parents and their families... because you never had one. The things you are looking at are all fundamentally flawed because your basis and premises on judgement are all wrong. How can you establish firm decisions when your baselines are not stable? Truth is... you don't know better... so don't criticize  your ex for loving his family more than he does you. Because the truth is... Unlike you, he is part of something bigger... he's part of something...while all you do love is yourself and all you really do is try to find things you lack but don't need... you couldn't even get yourself to love or care for your brother. Congratulations. I know better now.

Anyway... enough with this... I got to do stuff now.